the evening

Autumn at its end ..dawn of the winter
Li’l bit of cold and the month of November

Evening was the time…6 showed d clock
stood a  guy in plains ..waiting in the dim dark

 Happy he was …nervous he was too
Going to meet d one ..he never wanna loose

What he’ll say what he’ll not
Confused he was …so wer his thoughts

Came the call of her
‘where you are?’

‘where I should be’
Replied he

He can see her
Left hand beside ear

Holding her mobile
Oh! She was so fragile

Her sight intersected through him
Smiling , she came

it was dark then.. so was her outfit
but like a firefly ..she lit

was she smiling or she was blushing?
for him.. it was everything

strategically they sat in a park
every elapsing  second was making it pitch dark

he was speaking as if he was muted before
recalling that moment makes him blush from the core

he want the time to freeze
dumb he was… wishing impossible at so ease

an hour seemed like 5 minutes …time passed so quickly
perhaps that is Theory of Relativity

in good times …time is speeding faster
but it seems crawling , during any disaster

the evening was indescribable ..like never seen before
or was it just an illusion?... still he adore

it was their first meet.. could be the last
he didn’t know was in her heart

expecting to meet again in future…he said ‘ok then goodbye’
she had such intentions..asking her ..he didn’t give a try

so they separated ..waving hands of farewell
overwhelmed he was  ..he can’t even tell

on his way back…he was smiling needlessly
visualizing the past hour and how it flee

and the evening was normal again
but now less were  anguish harshness and pain

to b what i was

i tried ma best

fuck wat says d rest

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but all went away in vain

but dats it.. i wont try again!!

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i opened up like a book 

but dat was not enough though

chuck it.. i'll live

like i was living before

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i just had a dream dats wot i'll xplain 

but all dreams need not to come true

some untold words ..

sharing whom i wanted to

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i;ll recover but cracks remain

repenting me dat i tried in vain 

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was i worth more . i still dont kno

atleast m trying hard just to let it go.

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let it go nd pretend nothing happend

pretention is all i can do coz its my only weapon

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weapon which i can use in ma defence ..now and then

to overcome the situation i am in

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 no offence if situation worsen coz 

i'll try my best 2 be what i was

Quuotes!

1. dissect ma brain____ bore a hole in ma head ;
i'll bear the pain____but____ I ai'nt be dead.
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2.All u can do 2 me is HATE.. .
"Dats it" n "THATS all" written in ur "FATE"..
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3.things change__ shit happens__ n still LIFE GOES ON!!
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4. no matter how strong a guy is if he has some girl he cares for !! .
it reveals his SOFT side
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5. Terrorise ur heart.. It'll bow b4 u...
Let heart tame u.. It'll blow u... :/
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6. ‎1st impression ___is last impression__!!
chuck it dude__ i aint here to IMPRESS____ m here 2 xpress

SCARS of CURSE nd NOTHINGNESS

words can pray__so don't u pleA_

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existence has become a CURSE__death too has become a dream_

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lone truth inside__lips curving into fake smile_

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sins are to be undone  & still to conquer miles_.

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standing statued ___lonely in an isle

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emerging sparkingly from nowhere__ sparkingly from piles _

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drowned in oceans__ dragged into hell

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crushed by mob__should i more tell

.tryin 2 repell

more i try ___ more i fell

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remains will be scars __pain unleashed by death knell_

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breathing each breath__hearing single beat of heart_

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has death been invaded__ or its a new statrt

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supressionis not desired__ even HELP is HELPLESS

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dawn is at way far at d end__ hoping for NOTHINGNESS

IMMORTALIY is not__ for what m CRYING

laughing silently __murmuring alone;

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on the moments

with time which have gone;

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now m realising _its not impossible

dat I am trying;

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IMMORTALIY is not__ for what m CRYING

treading d path leading to nowhere:

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in d search of d one I care;

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walking back to d time

NO!! I can't even dare;

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u may laugh at IT

but atleast m not LYING

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IMMORTALIY is not__ for what m CRYING

silent in silence__smiling in crowd;

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secrecy of ma GRIEF

leaving it untold __i have  vowed;

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dont give a fuck to haters

dats wat m proud;

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not asking for ur sorrows to give me

its one thing dat m BUYING;

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IMMORTALIY is not__ for what m CRYING

loved _hated___ignored and accepted

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leading to consequence dat no-one is affected;

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regaining my confidence

NUMB but still CLARIFYING;

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IMMORTALIY is not__ for what m CRYING

exam TIMEPASS

Tryin to kill tym ....

so its must to write dis rhyme;

sometimes theres a whisper ..

sometimes tapping f knuckles ;

wanna give ma sheet back ...

To make me free of shakles;

sounds f turning pages...

Me rubbing my head;

evryonez hands r moving...

But it seemz like m DEAD;

hardly 10 minutes r passed ...

I wrote d whole i know ;

but in vain m sitting here ...

Coz dey r'nt lettin me go;

invigilator wandering in room...

Some students r also done ;

its even harder to sit heya dan a cross country run;

noises coming from outside d room 1 is not in dress code ...

Childhood was free of tensions ..now ma head has 2 bear ol d load;

music retrieves tension n m free frm ol griefs n pain...

Its examination hall and m writing ol dis ...feels lyk m INSANE...

BREAKUP to OVERCOME

m not a poet__ so dis is not a poem

reality of MOST __rest read it as a RHYME 

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earphones stuffed in__drowned in WORDS

repeating the song of situation __u've never heard

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just to put viel on ur pain

u stay lone __that too in vain

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world seemz away__way far AWAY

all alone u r___ ALONE!, UNKNOWN! and STARY

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though u pray still to fix d mishappening

but u urself have put __d "final nail in d COFFIN"

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u feel like "prey of fate"...blaming all on it

IGNORING d grief of separation__dats what u cant omit

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all alone SOMEHOW__ that moments u beared

dont wanna recall& dont even wanna share

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messed past __strengthn ur TOMORROW

tomorrow

d hope of let go of ur sorrow

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letting ur fault__not to trail ur path

mischevious mind__shud cover up d wrath!

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time passes by__drying d tears u cried

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at first u feel DEPRESSED__and remain lonesome

but b stable__coz u have a BREAKUP TO OVERCOME